... I'll be motivated to give a nice long elaborate wonderful post, but at this point will have to be content with a quick update on life.
Thanksgiving break was wonderful! I've never been more content to do absolutely nothing in my life :) Honestly at one moment I remember thinking "hey maybe I should be doing something" then realizing I didn't have to so I didn't.
That was besides Friday and Saturday when I was convinced to wake up early, for vacation standards, to go shopping. They turned out to be good shopping days mainly for me rather than the Christmas presents I should be getting, but now I'm done with half of the presents. That and I am finally getting ideas for the rest of the family so I'm not stressing out over that!
Today I was talking with the pastor and treasurer of the church that I work for and I came to a realization that this job is a good fit for me. For part of my job I get sent on a missions trip (that is don't have to pay for), help out another community (love when I am able to be helpful), hang out with the amazing youth at the church, get paid to do so, AND that's not part of my vacation! I was quite excited and at my excitement the pastor said that it's a good sign that I like spending time with youth. At the end of my time today I left my office the messiest I've left it... that is the papers weren't in a perfect stack... there are some items that I need to move to the storage closets... there are things left for me to do, but I had such a peace and contentment about it all. My list is constantly transforming and things are being accomplished. My only hope is that all the work I do coincides with God's plans.
The next week is going to fly by with all the work for school to do and the fact that my parent's and Lily are coming down to Rochester this weekend! They have not seen the apartment and the only time they were in Rochester, that I know of, has been for the All-State concert and, in Mom and Lily's case, for my audition to Nazareth for undergraduate.
Now for some randomness... Last time I was in Croghan I stopped by Stump's with my Mom and she informed me that those huge posters they use to advertise for movies they give away to the first person to claim them! So I claimed one that day and when I went to pick it up, saw another one I liked, and no one had claimed it! I put up the poster not 20 minutes ago and it matches the wall like it was meant to be there!
Final realization of the night since I have a big nanny day ahead of me... As I was driving home from Woman's Choir I realized that my day was what I will someday expect, hours wise, of a work day. I was at such peace about it and I think that has been the recurring theme of my life right now, one that I am thoroughly treasuring :)
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
perhaps the quickest blog I will ever write...
... in the midst of my insomnia a sharing of peace...
In Woman's Choir on Thursdays we begin our time with devotions. This past week we took a small amount of time to ask God to show us something and I was reminded of all the things I have been worrying about, primarily my future and what am I doing currently. God reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I got such a peace about God's care of my future. God spoke a little more details in that time- I think it's pretty amazing how quickly God can communicate with us if we take the time to ask for his perspective!
time to sleep so I am ready for the garage sale tomorrow!
... coming soon... The Transformation of the Office/ My Office: A Picture Adventure to Show a Part of My Weekly Life! :)... and perhaps some pictures from the garage sale!
In Woman's Choir on Thursdays we begin our time with devotions. This past week we took a small amount of time to ask God to show us something and I was reminded of all the things I have been worrying about, primarily my future and what am I doing currently. God reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I got such a peace about God's care of my future. God spoke a little more details in that time- I think it's pretty amazing how quickly God can communicate with us if we take the time to ask for his perspective!
time to sleep so I am ready for the garage sale tomorrow!
... coming soon... The Transformation of the Office/ My Office: A Picture Adventure to Show a Part of My Weekly Life! :)... and perhaps some pictures from the garage sale!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
getting a little vulnerable...
Now I told myself that I would not get vulnerable online- that is on a blog, that if people honestly wanted to know they could ask me... well today I guess I don't really care or figure that if people are looking here they're taking the extra step...
... the past few days have been difficult for me. I have not been able to find the motivation to do the work that I have to do. Partly I have found the task, a research paper for a professor that has very high expectations, to be a little overwhelming and have become homesick. Granted during one of my homesick bits I came to the realization that the next time I go home is Thanksgiving, which is after the paper, which brought on more homesickness/depression bit. Also as I have been working people have been asking me specifically if teaching is what the plan is and frankly I don't know if that's what I'm being called to after I get my Masters... which brings me to more of a lack of motivation for courses for my Masters work. I also realized with all the jobs that I have I could be financially stable, but instead find that I am getting more debt for school and these doubts keep coming up. That and although I am starting to get the feel of the job- the job makes me feel grown up and realize that certain parts of my life may be over... specifically my time at Beaver Camp... I know that I can't be there forever, but I think that my optimism never allowed for the chance truly that there was the possibility of not returning. I don't tend to cry... well I have and probably will continue to do so... also I found it was difficult knowing that my sister was trying on wedding gowns with my other sister and mom... while I was here not being able to motivate myself to do the work that I should be doing... there is a connection between my sense of failure, emotions, and changes- that and I find that I am discontent when I am bored/ not doing work that should be done- unmotivated!
On the upside- I got back to typing and got the summary done for another one of my articles and plan on tackling the paper this week and then handing it in on the following! That and although I don't know what's happening with my Masters God has been faithful and supporting me here in Rochester. I have to hold onto that fact rather than let myself get overwhelmed, and then further behind. As for Beaver Camp I just have to trust that God knows what he's doing, he'll provide me with the strength and peace about it, or change circumstances to make it happen... I have to stop trying to control the situation and acknowledge his plans
two highlights of the weekend:
-went to woman's night and had a craving to watch 27 dresses so I watched it with two wonderful women- that is how I took advantage of the extra hour! ;)
-after moving a bunch of stuff for the rummage sale *this Saturday- yikes!* everyone that helped out shared joys and concerns and there was such a peace and community in the youth group and parents that had helped out... I am excited to continue to be a part of it! :)
... the past few days have been difficult for me. I have not been able to find the motivation to do the work that I have to do. Partly I have found the task, a research paper for a professor that has very high expectations, to be a little overwhelming and have become homesick. Granted during one of my homesick bits I came to the realization that the next time I go home is Thanksgiving, which is after the paper, which brought on more homesickness/depression bit. Also as I have been working people have been asking me specifically if teaching is what the plan is and frankly I don't know if that's what I'm being called to after I get my Masters... which brings me to more of a lack of motivation for courses for my Masters work. I also realized with all the jobs that I have I could be financially stable, but instead find that I am getting more debt for school and these doubts keep coming up. That and although I am starting to get the feel of the job- the job makes me feel grown up and realize that certain parts of my life may be over... specifically my time at Beaver Camp... I know that I can't be there forever, but I think that my optimism never allowed for the chance truly that there was the possibility of not returning. I don't tend to cry... well I have and probably will continue to do so... also I found it was difficult knowing that my sister was trying on wedding gowns with my other sister and mom... while I was here not being able to motivate myself to do the work that I should be doing... there is a connection between my sense of failure, emotions, and changes- that and I find that I am discontent when I am bored/ not doing work that should be done- unmotivated!
On the upside- I got back to typing and got the summary done for another one of my articles and plan on tackling the paper this week and then handing it in on the following! That and although I don't know what's happening with my Masters God has been faithful and supporting me here in Rochester. I have to hold onto that fact rather than let myself get overwhelmed, and then further behind. As for Beaver Camp I just have to trust that God knows what he's doing, he'll provide me with the strength and peace about it, or change circumstances to make it happen... I have to stop trying to control the situation and acknowledge his plans
two highlights of the weekend:
-went to woman's night and had a craving to watch 27 dresses so I watched it with two wonderful women- that is how I took advantage of the extra hour! ;)
-after moving a bunch of stuff for the rummage sale *this Saturday- yikes!* everyone that helped out shared joys and concerns and there was such a peace and community in the youth group and parents that had helped out... I am excited to continue to be a part of it! :)
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